Wednesday, May 16 2007 [how do i stop the voices in my head??]

well, to cut a long story short...let's just say i had one of THOSE days where the climax was not only embarassing but also left me with this 'vibe'....and it's SO not a good thing. i don't want to talk about it, but my therapist said talking helps. right, like WHY would i want to dump my problems on anyone? like THEY don't have problems of their OWN! (why am i using the word 'like' anyway?!)

so basically, i had a bad day....well, it started out good...no, actually when i woke up this morning i had this 'feeling' that something was gonna happen....and guess what? IT DID!! (i'd like the thank the 'Academy'...my fellow 'work mates' - namely you, you and definately YOU...my pet iguana for being there when i needed you...my shadow for nvr letting the Sun go down on me...etc.)

for consolation, i'd like to attemp this 'survey'...(just to show you i CAN...and that i WILL...and that i don't give a F*** abt what you think!)...and this is also a special dedication to the person who deliberately changed the comp settings on this PC to GERMAN (do i LOOK like i can speak German to you? idiota...MUCHO idiota!!)

1. Name one person who always make you
smile even when you're upset with them.
- Alena

2. What were you doing at 5:00 this
morning?
- grumbling coz the thunder woke me up

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- eating

4. Who was the last person who broke
your heart?
- "...Dorian....you broke my heart!" *snicker*

5. What is the last thing you said
aloud?
- "yey...your Mum's here!"

6. How many different things did you
drink today?
-....lost count...[come on, bacardi and jamaica are NOT the same thing...]

7. What color is your hairbrush?
- the one that broke? i think it was blue

8. What was the last thing you bought?
- food

9. where do you live?
- southern Palermo

10. What color is your gate?
- black

11. Where is your brother?
-at a "meeting" with Papa....and the other Dons....*rolls eyes*

12. how was your day yesterday?
- NASTY! *sees Maxine's face* [what? as if YOU don't indulge in a little S&M once in a while...]

13. What is the last ice cream flavor
you ate?
- lime n vanilla

14. are you an optimistic one?
- yes...there's ALWAYS 2 sides to the LIST

15. Do you think your okay?
- no, i'm NVR ok...why should i be?

16. contented in life?
- sigh....so much to do, so little time....so few straight men....

17. Do you talk a lot?
- yes

18. are you happy with the love of
your life right now? why?
- yes. why? why shouldn't i be happy loving myself?

19. do you skip meals?
-seldom

20. do you consider yourself smart?
- i'm a GENIUS! *muahahahahahaha....*

21. Do you cook your own food?
- yes, and i hunt my own food too

22. reason for living?
- to take care of the LIST

23. Are you typically a jolly person?
- yes, especially when i write on the LIST

24. name one enemy of yours:
- *checks LIST* name...ONE? but, but...there're 375 names here??

25. Name one close friend:
- Alena

26. Who's first person in your
phonebook?
- home-sweet-home

27. What did the last text message you
received say?
- "...Biawak, now you know why i don't like her..."

28. Do you go to gym?
- no

29. song playing at the moment:
- *Imperial March* "places everyone! the Empress is on her way!!!!"

30. message for the person who you
love the most.
-"Alena...i MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH! for god's sake, will you just come home already!!!" [lol....i know, i know...i sound desperate]